I wanted to talk about what it's like to struggle with heavy periods, as it can be completely debilitating and yet it's something society deems taboo to discuss. This post will contain very graphic talk about periods and associated symptoms so if that's not for you, I'd stop reading now. 

really amused myself with the font choice, heheheh.
Too often, people are told to shut up and get on with it when it comes to periods, but that's simply not possible for everyone. I'm done with being silenced about something that has affected my life so greatly for years and affects the lives of so many others.

My periods have gotten progressively worse since I was 17. Before then, I really had no problem with them, and had considered myself lucky to have managable, regular periods from day one. By the time I got to university, they had became so heavy and painful I couldn't leave my home. Recently, they have become so unbearably painful that I have nearly been hospitalised. The only reason I wasn't is that the pain began to fade after a lengthy call with the amazing NHS 111 service, just as they were about to send an ambulance.  

The average period for me is so heavy that I can leak through a night-time sanitary towel within less than an hour, and often contains not just blood, but chunks of tissue. Seeing chunks of fleshy tissue coming out of you is nothing short of terrifying when it happens, and makes leaving the house incredibly difficult as there's a very real chance of me leaking blood through to my clothing before even reaching my destination. 

Frequently I'm in so much pain I can't actually straighten my body and end up reduced to tears, unable to think of anything else but the pain. Pain killers, hot water bottles, and heat pads have barely any effect on it, either. The night I was nearly hospitalised, I was in so much pain I couldn't speak (Freddie spoke to NHS 111 for me), and was trapped crying, groaning, and writhing around on the floor. It was scary and I've never felt so vulnerable.

The other symptoms I experience are severe fatigue, dizziness when stood up, diarrhoea, and being incredibly sweaty and clammy. Even basic daily tasks like getting a shower can be incredibly difficult, and leaving the house is almost entirely impossible. For years now, I've spent a few days of each month lying in bed in pain, being unable to focus on or think of anything else. 

Being terrified and beyond anxious in the run up to my period, then put in such distress throughout it every month was getting too much. I want to be able to live my life all month, not just part of it. And I'd become incredibly worried that something was really wrong. After a visit to my doctor, I've not been given any offer of diagnosis or testing, beyond 'it's just bad luck', so I'm still not 100% sure what the cause is or if there even is one, which is frustrating. My doctor did suggest using progesterone-only contraceptive pills to eventually stop my periods so I don't have to suffer further, which is currently the path I'm on. 

Periods can cause severe physical and mental distress, and make daily tasks almost impossible to complete. If you're suffering, you're absolutely not alone and I'd recommend speaking to your doctor. It's not something anyone should ever be made to feel ashamed of, or forced to just suffer through, and certainly not something anyone should be told 'can't be that bad'. It can be, and it is, for too many people who suffer in silence about it. If you want to talk about it, feel free to reach out to me for an understanding ear. 


  1. I know your pain dear, my periods have always been awful. I just dose myself up on paracetamol and sit with a hot water bottle for at least 2 days. I went on the pill to help with them at about 16, but came off during Uni because it was having a huge effect on my moods! Been looking into endometriosis as a cause maybe, it's often undiagnosed because period pain is just something we're "supposed" to deal with. Definitely look into that if you can!! Lots of love!!

    1. I'm so sorry you experience that too! :(
      I worry that it's endometriosis with me too, but my doctor seems to think I'm 'too young to have it' [insert much eye-rolling here]. I'm going to keep pushing for an answer but I'm just so glad to be on the way to not having periods.

  2. Hey Kiah! Love this. So glad you have chose to talk about this. I went through the same thing as you. I started my periods at just 10 and by 12 was in agony every single month and suffering from many of the same symptoms as you. I tried all sorts of contraception (and no I wasn't sexually active at such a young age) the doctor suggested it to my mum as a way to relieve them. Finally I decided to get a coil fitted at 19 and I have absolutely no periods or even signs of any... nothing whatsoever. No headaches, that was a massive side affect for me, no tummy aches, no backache, no feeling like my insides were going to fall out. Nothing! If you want to talk about it further just ring me!

    But look, we wouldn't have known that about each other if you didn't write this!!! Well done you. Loves ya :)

    1. Hello! I'm so sorry you went through all that! It's just horrible, isn't it? My doctor suggested the coil, implant, or progesterone-only pill as options for me, so I'm trying the pill first before anything more invasive so I'm hoping it works! So glad you found what works for you! :) Having a chat about it sometime would be great!
      Thank you for reading and opening up about it, it is kinda hard to talk about!
      Love you too! :)